Kindness

There are times in life where we feel left out, lonely and abandoned. Throughout my life that has been a frequent, when I was younger I was often the target of bullies, and was put down through mean words on a daily basis. I never really fit in that well, which is what made high school really hard. However throughout high school there were a few people who would pick me up, and build me up, and were genuinely kind to me. These were the types of people who helped me get through that time, and after graduation and going all our separate ways, I would on occasion keep in tough through social media. It wasn't often, but enough to know that we still considered each other friends.

One of these people messaged me this evening(I have not spoken to her in years), asking for my address, so that she could send me a "save the date" card to her upcoming wedding. I thought that it might have been a mistake but, it wasn't. In that moment I started to cry, feeling touched that she had thought of ME, and wanted to share her special day with me. These moments make me look back at that high school time that I hated so much, and desperately want to forget, and wish that I had enjoyed it more. I have been told that we as humans will never know how much we are loved by others, until we are shown an act of kindness. I am so excited for my friend, and can't wait till she gets her chance to walk down the aisle, and I want to thank her SO MUCH for all those years in high school where she sat and talked with me, and sometimes just listened. She made a huge impact on my life, but I never realized how much I made on her. So don't ever miss a chance to share that kindness with someone else, who knows what kind of mark you may leave.

I've always been somewhat of a child....

So here it goes, life as a soon to be 25 year old. Where do I begin? Well lets start with introductions I am a soon to be 25 year old girl who you may refer to as "T". Simple enough....so starting with that I will now tell you why I have landed here in wonderland. I have been looking for an escape lately and, decided to runaway from home and come here! Not really, if only that were possible, in all seriousness I just needed a place to chat and muse, because lets be honest if we all kept everything to ourselves we would all be crazy! So to avoid the craziness of everyday life I've decided to plop down all of my thoughts right here and give you a peak into the mind of a soon-to-be 25 year old artist , that still chooses to go though life as a child. Growing up on a small dairy farm as the oldest of three girls, I was expected to behave and act like an adult....that never happened (sorry mom and dad), I was also expected to (just like the rest of my family) either go into an Ag related field, or a science related field. Which (again) never happened, I decided to go the creative route and try my luck in an art education field. Now as a fully employed art teacher I get to meet all kinds of kids, and students, each one unique and special. I couldn't ask for anything better.....could I? This is where all of the thinking starts, all signs in my life point to happiness, and being content....but I am not....content that is...I am very much happy I can guarantee you that I am....just not content.  Then again as a child I was never content, which is part of the reason I feel that I have always bee a child. So read this blog or don't it really doesn't matter to me, but if you do be prepared to fall into this crazy insane world I like to call wonderland.